A blast from the past...

Today I was tidying my computer files and deleting excess and useless stuff, when I found a folder with some of my old blog posts in it. It was very interesting!

Now, occasionally, when I want to blog on a topic, I will look at my last blog to see what I wrote, and hopefully update and expand on it. Occasionally I will just re-post it here! So apologies if you think you have read any of my posts before, but I am sometimes amazed at what I've written - in both a positive and negative sense! I go from thinking 'wow' to 'what on earth?!' on a daily basis! 

I first started my original blog 'SHINE' in 2012 after starting a Facebook page to encourage women in their walks with God. Its very exciting reading back over those first posts, where we worked our way through the 40 Acts that Stewardship uses to remember lent, and then looking at Elizabeth George's book 'Life Management for Busy Women'. 

I have thoroughly enjoyed thinking of challenges, mini series and posts to blog about, but in 2017 I wrote a blog post that changed everything. I wrote a post about my mental health that was just a little too personal for some people. I started getting phone calls from people asking why I'd written it, or telling me that other people had been asking them what was going on. 

I don't regret writing it. And the main reason for that is that two friends came forward after I'd written it and said that they needed it - just right then.

But for the sake of my family and friends (and my sanity!) I took the post down. 

And then in a fit of rage I deleted my blog. Yes, I know. Not a very professional or sensible thing to do. 

But I was so annoyed at putting myself out there, being honest about my struggles in order to help someone else, and being pulled up for it because of what we do. 

But God...

Oh yes - those amazing words... 

God brought me through that, to a place where I'm ready to start over again, with a different focus and a different perspective. This time I need to grow and this is my journey. 

Yes I will still be personal and honest in my posts, but this time I will be  much more careful about them and what I share. 

So I'm excited. And scared!

Thank you for journeying with me.