Discipline

Well, the Tuesday weigh in came and went with a mixture of tears and frustration. 

I have really been fighting against myself as I try to continue this journey. My self-sabotage instincts have kicked in full throttle and I've been eating all round me. Do I actually believe that I can do this? Do I actually believe God is interested in my weight loss battle? This is where discipline comes in. I do believe God has a plan, but how am I ever going to fulfil it when I am overweight and tired constantly. And that's the truth of the matter. I am so tired that I have to have a nap every afternoon. Every afternoon. I am only 43 years old. That's just ridiculous!

So I need to put a real effort in, and believe that God does want to know about my little daily battles, and will help me when I ask for His help - even if its only to help me choose not to eat that lovely bag of crisps or piece of cake! God has said that He gives us the victory. We are more than conquerors because Christ has already won. We just need to believe it and ask for His help. 

SO what was the result of this wee week of self-doubt? Not a good result! There seems to be two pounds that like to drop off and then cling back on -  bit like a little elastic band - so they have re-attached themselves to my middle! I am now back at the weight I first got to on 12th November. That's two whole months of yo-yo weigh ins. And that's where the frustration comes in. 

Let's see if we can't knock these two elastic pounds into next week!! 

Keep shining xxx